What is it like?

What is it like to be turned into someone
You never imagined yourself to be

What is it like to witness helplessly
Things changing the way it was never meant to be

What is it like to be aware of the fact that
You can't have what you ever wanted from life

What is it like to live a life
As a sum total of equal positives and equal negatives
And then realize that the positives have been negated
When it was only meant to be the other way around

What is it like to stand against everyone to standby someone
And then see yourself standing alone equidistant from everyone and someone you stood with, alike

What is it like to feel the drops of harsh and penetrating reality
From the deceitful clouds of hopes, expectations and trust

What is it like to close your eyes to the beautiful dream
Which you always believed all your life
To be able to turn into reality

What is it like to look at the same dream
Which took away from you all that you have ever been
And wonder was the dream worth leaving everything behind

What is it like to chase and struggle for something
Which should effortlessly be with you
And never find it how it was supposed to be
Only to bring you pains from the absence of those

What is it like to break yourself into pieces
To be able to be filled with love
But only to find yourself ripped apart
With the broken pieces still finding their way to come together again

What is it like to unbecome yourself
To be able to change in every possible way
And learn to coexist with the stranger under your own skin!!

This is me!!!

My camera isn't great

Nor my face perfect

But whatever I am is without any mask

And by no means fake.

I assure you of always finding me

Original and true to myself

With my heart and soul bare in front of you

If I call you my own.

You can hurt me and make me cry

But that's the only thing you can try

There is no way you can bring me down

Because giving you the chance to hurt me is my choice

But being a failure is not my type.

I have been through tumultuous times

Seen people change and well-wishers sudden confine

To their own benefits and conveniences

Without slightest mercy or consideration.

I have survived it all without changing anything I ever was

Not because it is easy to do so

But because I understand the pain

And don't want to be the kind of person

The so called wrong ones in my life had been to me!!!

I Write

When there is so much to say
But no words to express
I write.

When there are a thousand words
But all those don't conform to the
Framework of understandable 
Jargon of intercourse
 I write.

When the lava of emotions 
Erupting from heart 
Overpowers the waves of rationale and reasons 
Of the mind
I write.

When there is no one
To make myself heard
And I want to make myself audible
In the loudest possible way
I write.

When the proximity 
Of being misunderstood
Is more than the possibility
Of getting understood 
I write.

When the feelings keep me occupied
Unsure of what is wrong and what is right
When what lays ahead is a road of doubt
Over walked, discouraging and so wide
When I am not sure about something but i might
When the deepest secret urges to take the highest flight
I write!!!!





 

The First Thing

The first thing i see
When i look at you
Is an immense strength
That i can always hold on to.

The first thing i feel
When i touch you
Is a serene wave of emotions
Arisen from the boundless sea of love.

The first thing i hear 
When i listen to you
Is the only distinct voice
That keeps echoing in my mind
Among the voices of the crowd of the world.

The only thing i can make out
When i think of you
Is your inevitable presence in
Every bit of me!!!

Silence

Silence.....

Unspoken words

Or a thunderstorm that's never heard.

Silence.....

Unborn feelings

Or the grave of emotions.

Silence......

Lava under the surface  

Or glacier in the running water.

Silence......

Clouds that never rain

Or vapours that could never form cloud.

Silence.....

Reticent tears that fall from eyes

Or the noiseless loudest cry .

Silence....
Subtle and profound

feelings

Or the most beautiful response.

Silence....

Unwanted, unimportant, unsaid

Or could have mattered a lot when expressed!!!!

Loveology !!!

One day through the windows of my eyes
I saw you passing by.
The sight of your presence remained for longer
And my feelings for you grew stronger and stronger..

Since that day on 
You started travelling with my body along
Sometimes you would pass through my mind
And at the other in my ears as an echoing sound.

I tried blocking your way into my body and mind
Occupying the passage of your travel
In different activities of my earlier interests
But hardly any success I could find.
Your sight in my eyes
And your visit in my bodily abode
Became so frequent and permanent 
That I could barely close the windows of my eyes
As you would be always be running and passing by
In the corridors and hidden corners of my mind.

I don't remember the duration of your stay there
But one day I heard a knock on the door of my heart
I opened the door
And there you stood with everything that I ever wished for
You were allowed inside
With a promise that it's here that you are gonna forever reside.

Once in the heart
Every bit of you got pumped throughout my body
In every part and in every vein
In every pleasure and in every pain
A presence as inevitable as oxygen 
And now you are settled here forever
So much so that I can't identify
The YOU in ME
and the ME in I....!!!!!

Pink(2016) is a kind of movie that happens once in a while. The movie voices the problems and concerns of independent working women. The movie is an eye opener for the typical mindset of our society that asks women to be restricted in every possible way rather than teaching it's men to behave themselves. Our society goes by a simple rule- if you are a women, behave in a way which seems appropriate to men and still be their victims. Whereas men are free to do what they want, what they like and still intruding in women's life because they are not happy with theirs. The movie clearly brings out the facts that why as parents to a girl child people often hesitate or think quite a number of times for letting their girl have the freedom that their boys enjoy. If we are perfectly fine with men staying alone and working why is it so difficult for the society to accept a woman doing the same. If by chance and choice a woman chooses to be different she is labelled as someone inappropriate in code and conducts. The movie also beautifully demonstrates the double standards that the society has in dealing with a man and a woman. Why do women have a specific code of conduct while men can live the way they want without being judged and misinterpreted? Why a woman's NO and CONSENT is not taken into consideration? Why can't men take NO for an answer from women without being violent against them? Despite several hue and cry about equality, when are we actually going to treat men and women alike in every possible way? When are we going to understand a woman's identity as an individual and a human being rather than considering them as a mere object of sexual pleasure? In answer to these questions lies the answer to the cause and control of increasing number of acid attacks, rape, domestic violence and several other crimes against women. A must must must watch..