What is it like?

What is it like to be turned into someone
You never imagined yourself to be

What is it like to witness helplessly
Things changing the way it was never meant to be

What is it like to be aware of the fact that
You can't have what you ever wanted from life

What is it like to live a life
As a sum total of equal positives and equal negatives
And then realize that the positives have been negated
When it was only meant to be the other way around

What is it like to stand against everyone to standby someone
And then see yourself standing alone equidistant from everyone and someone you stood with, alike

What is it like to feel the drops of harsh and penetrating reality
From the deceitful clouds of hopes, expectations and trust

What is it like to close your eyes to the beautiful dream
Which you always believed all your life
To be able to turn into reality

What is it like to look at the same dream
Which took away from you all that you have ever been
And wonder was the dream worth leaving everything behind

What is it like to chase and struggle for something
Which should effortlessly be with you
And never find it how it was supposed to be
Only to bring you pains from the absence of those

What is it like to break yourself into pieces
To be able to be filled with love
But only to find yourself ripped apart
With the broken pieces still finding their way to come together again

What is it like to unbecome yourself
To be able to change in every possible way
And learn to coexist with the stranger under your own skin!!