Wednesday, December 30, 2015

YOU PROVED ME WRONG !!!

I woke up with headache, like any other day, at six in the morning and called out Mahira for my tea. It was rarely, though, as I have always found Mahira standing with the tea as soon as I would open my eyes. Not finding any signs of her presence a sudden gush of feeling took over me which reminded me of the incident that took place last night. All of a sudden the entire episode flashed before my eyes. I came home drunk last night for the first time and instead of letting me in, she was standing there at the door with all the anger she could hold against me.

"Did you drink?" she asked folding her hands.

"Yes, I did. So?" I replied pushing her aside to enter the house.

"So? You are asking this to me? Don't you realize that this isn't a proper behavior?" she said blocking my way.

"Ahhh...Really? So, now you would be guiding me about what's proper and what's not, right?"

She couldn't speak further but I could see tears in her eyes which she was trying hard to stop. I got my chance to enter the house. I entered the house pushing her aside. She stood there for a while and then came back to where I was sitting after closing the door. She sat at my feet and holding my hand said as calmly as she could,

"Listen I am not trying to preach you or something but drinking is not good. You know that, right? You never drank before. Is everything alright?"

I jerked off her hands. Her behavior made me even angrier and I blurted out everything I had against her.

"Yeah. You are right. I have never done that before and now that I have done, it's all because of you. You are the biggest and only trouble in my life. My life has been made hell since I got married to you. I never wanted someone like you in my life. I mean look at you. You have neither style nor grace. You are nothing more than a typical housewife. All you know is to cook, clean and do other household stuff. Do you have any idea about life beyond what you do? I got many marriage proposals from girls of my standard but I have no clue why my parents chose you over others."

"You are drunk. Let's discuss this tomorrow. You should take rest I guess." she said in a trembling voice.

"No. I am perfectly alright and I know what I am saying. It's getting on my nerves now and I can't take it anymore. Let me finish with whatever I want to say because it's now or never. I always wanted someone smart, happening, working and whom I could introduce proudly to everyone I know. But look at you! You are exactly opposite of what I always wanted. To be precise I hate you being around. I hate everything you do for me. I just hate everything about you so much so that I can't tolerate you in my life."

As soon as I finished, I looked at her for her response. Surprisingly, contrary to how I actually expected her to respond, she stood up and went to her room (Yes, you guessed it right! We had separate rooms). She returned with a bag in her hand after half an hour. Without speaking a word to me she walked straight to the door, opened the door, turned back and said,

"I don't want to be a reason for your troubles. So, it's better for both of us not to stay together anymore. But in case you need anything do remember that I am just a call away."

And she left. She left me. She left my house. She left the space she shared with me in the name of marriage. In short, I was left alone. Suddenly, the sound of the walk clock brought me back to the present again. As I was getting ready for the office there were many questions running through my mind. Why did Mahira leave? She had been good to me then why do I hate her that much? What were my actual feelings about her not being around? I wasn't sure that I was happy or sad or just no feeling at all. Was it intentional what all I did, just to make sure that she leaves me? And finally, was I missing her? I didn't have answer to all these questions except for the last one about which I was definitely sure. Obviously not! Missing her would be the last thing in this world that I could think of. Thinking this way gave me a certain surety about me being happy and peaceful about Mahira's absence. I was happy about not being forced to have my breakfast and carry that stupid lunch prepared by her. Though it started on a note of uncertainty, I actually started loving my new found freedom. I left for my office happily for the first time in the past one and a half years.

Another two months following Mahira's departure were a period complete bliss. I started waking up at 8 in the working and leave for the office after getting ready. I also started taking breakfast and lunch outside and was quite happy about it as it gave me a variety of options to eat. I had every reason to be happy. But gradually I don't know what took over me and I started getting bored with what all I was enjoying till now. The variety of food at hotel started giving me the look saying "Ah..You're here again!" I don't know exactly what, but there was some change in me which only I could notice. I did't have any concrete rationale to define those changes but the only concrete thing that marked the actual realization of the change in some way was when I met my previous maid while going to office. It happened a week ago. I was already getting late for the office when this previous maid of mine named Maya, who used to work for me when I was unmarried. When Mahira came to stay with me, she insisted that she doesn't need Maya anymore. Although it was embarrassing for me to tell her that her services are not required now, I had to do it because of Mahira. I hated Mahira for that. I knew just because Mahira doesn't work, she wanted to do the household work to prove that she isn't useless completely or may be she wanted to save money for her shopping and stuff. Any ways after telling Maya not to come to my home for work anymore I always avoided any direct confrontation with her as I couldn't face her. I always carried that guilt in me and all that was because of Mahira. I happened to meet Maya the week before and even though I tried my best to ignore her, she called out,

"Bhaia! How are you? How is Mahira bhabhi?"

"Oh Maya. Is that you? I couldn't recognize you. I am good. Bhabhi is not here these days. She has gone to visit her parents. How are you?" I replied.

"I'm fine too. How are you managing without bhabhi alone? Shall I come to help you out until bhabhi comes back?"

"No. Not at all! I'm managing well. Thank you. And I am really sorry for what I did to you. I am really grateful for your offer." I was surprised to see her warmth towards us after all that.

"No bhaia. I'm not that great. I was angry when you asked me to leave the job but bhabhi called me and spoke to me once. She used to pay my daughter's school fees even though I wasn't working. She also used to teach my daughter in the evening. And every time I offered her help she used to refuse by saying that she loves doing things for you and your home on her own. I'll tell you something bhaia. Mahira bhabhi is really nice. You are lucky to have her."

"Ummm. Yeah. Okay. I'll leave because I'm getting late for the office."

"Okay bhaia. Call me whenever you need my help." she said smilingly.

"Yeah, sure." I left for office. But I couldn't concentrate on my work or on anything for that matter. Maya's words were echoing in my mind again and again. All of a sudden I got reminded of Mahira and of the day she left me. I forced myself not to think anything like that and continued working. It was then that Samar came to my desk to call me to join them for lunch. I brushed aside the thoughts of Mahira completely and went for lunch. But as it is said that destiny has its own way, Mahira was again brought into our conversation. I ordered fried rice, Samar asked for a veg meal, Rajesh had biryani and Sameer surprised us by saying that he won't eat anything.

"No yaar. I ain't feeling well. Don't feel like eating anything."

"Why? What happened? Anything serious?" I asked anxiously.

"No, it's not like that. Its just that I have been eating outside for a long time now and my stomach is upset. I don't even feel like looking at the outside food. I really miss my mom's food."

"Hey it's okay. Did you take any medicine? Bhabhi is there at home, right? Why didn't you tell this to her. She could have done something because you won't get any better skipping meals like this."Samar said.

"I could have told this to Jaya only if she had time to listen. She is so busy in her life that she hardly has any time left to think about me or my well-being. I mean, I don't blame her for that because I know about her job and work pressure. We tried many maids for cooking and household work but nothing seemed to help." replied dull and hopeless Sameer.

"I understand. Don't worry. Have medicine and I suggest you to take rest for few days. You'll be okay." I told Sameer consolingly.

"Yeah. I hope the same. But hey, I wanted to ask you something. As far as I remember you always used to bring lunch box except for the last two months. Why is that? Isn't Mahira bhabhi around or she also started working somewhere?"

"Oh yes. Mahira isn't around. She went to her parents place for some time." I replied.

"Oh okay. I thought she joined somewhere because it's difficult to convince educated women to stay at home and be a housewife. Sometimes I feel like I should have married a girl with less education or shouldn't have married at all." Sameer said laughing slyly.

Lunch was over. We came back to our respective seats but I couldn't help thinking about Mahira. I felt like I have been possessed by her. I tried as hard as I could to concentrate on my work but couldn't. Unable to stay there anymore I sought my Boss's permission and left for home. As soon as I reached home I made myself a cup of tea and sat in the drawing room still restless about something I wasn't sure. I was lost in my thoughts when all of a sudden my eyes fell on Mahira's room. Looking at her room I got reminded that I have never been to that room since she occupied it. Curiously, I entered the room. As I switched on the light of the room I was surprised to find that a part of my house had such a beautiful corner. Everything in that room was so beautiful and nicely placed. I wondered how I never got to see this for the past one and a half years. May be the dull and darker side of the house was prominent enough to cover the beauty of that particular corner. Mahira's room had a small bed nicely folded showing her neatness, a cupboard full of toys reflecting the child in her her, a book shelf with nice collection of books revealing her intellectual side, a row a beautiful flowers in unique vases showing the inner beauty she had and on her bedside was a picture of us taken on our wedding which revealed the hidden love she had for me. I don't know why but I could feel her presence around. Just then under one of the vases I saw a piece of paper fluttering. I made my way to that place and was surprised to find that paper as a letter Mahira had left for me before leaving. I don't know from where and why there was a smile on my face. The letter said:

"Dear Prasoon,

I am writing this because I always wanted to say these things to you. The way things have been between us since the past one and a half years, I somehow had that intuition that I would have to leave you and go but I didn't know that its going to happen so soon. Frankly speaking you have never been nice to me no matter how hard I tried to win you over. I always thought that one day everything is going to be fine and all I need to be is patient. But today when you came home drunk I am convinced that all I can do for you is to create trouble. You can never be happy when I am around. I can manage without my happiness but I can't handle your unhappiness.
                                                                    You must be wondering that why I didn't give you the letter directly. I didn't hand over the letter to you because whatever I wanted to say has no meaning unless you recognize my existence. I know that even though I shared the house with you for quite a long time, I have always been like a non-existent entity for you after all. I always had that feeling that whenever you will accept and recognize my presence, you'll definitely enter my room. I wanted you to read my letter when my existence matters to you as then only it would make sense to you.
                                                                      I wanted to say all these things to you in person since long but couldn't. I wanted to say all this before leaving but you were not in the condition to listen or understand anything. I was always taught since my very childhood to place relationship over money, society, career and other material things. I imbibed the same in all the phases of my life. It's not that I never wanted to work. It's just that I didn't let you know that. It was in fact really difficult for me to sit at home and do the maid's work when my other friends were earning name and fame working outside. I used to console myself saying that it you who matters to me more than my career and position. I was happy in doing things for you and making your life comfortable even at the cost my own happiness. But the way things turned up I guess I have been given wrong teaching till now.  So, I should rather mend my ways instead of making things difficult for you and finally decided to leave.
                                                                     That's all I guess. It was nice meeting and staying with you. You are a nice person minus the hatred you have for me. Please try and forgive me for all the troubles caused by me but trust me I always wanted your happiness and nothing else. I want you to be happy with or without me and whenever you need me as a friend I'm just a call away.

Stay blessed!!!

Yours (not sure though)

Mahira"

I couldn't believe that I had tears in my eyes. I have never cried for anything before. I sat down on my knees reading and re-reading that letter again and again. Every single moment spent with Mahira, all my misbehavior towards her, my infringements and her resilience flashed before my eyes. I folded her letter and kept it in my pocket and stood up. I had to make up for what for all I did to her. I checked her wardrobe to figure out her favorite color and was successful in the same as majority of her dresses and saris were of black color and I got reminded of how black suited her well but she would rarely wear them or may be I never noticed. I, then, rushed out of the house and looked back to kind of assure the house that I would only return with the lady with me. I went to the best possible shop, bought the best black dress they had and got it wrapped with a note saying,


" Dearest Mahira,

I don't have much to say to you. I know I have been a useless husband and I deeply apologize you for that. I always saw you standing with my cup of tea but ignored your smile. I saw your insistence on breakfast and lunch but failed to see your love behind all that. I assumed that you don't work and sit idle but never realized the reason and your pain about that. You came to me leaving your family and everything you loved behind, you ignored your own happiness to make me comfortable and look at me, instead of making things easier for you, I complicated it further. I had been a fool to hate you.
                                                                        I request you to forgive me for all my misdeeds. I know my mistakes aren't easy to forgive but I will be really thankful to you if you could. I promise you that I would never hurt you ever again. If you could forgive me, I have sent a dress along with this letter and I would love to see you dressed in that. I'll be there at your door by 7 in the evening waiting for you. If your consider me worthy enough to forgive and spend another 60-70 years of your life with me, I'll be just few steps away waiting for you.

I Hope I grow old with you.

Only Yours (and I am very sure about it),

Prasoon."

I left the packet with the note on her doorsteps, rang the bell and left. I couldn't dare to confront her. I was on the losing end now. My entire life was dependent on Mahira's decision. Waiting till 7 in the evening was like being cursed with an eternal punishment. It was like time stopped for this particular day making me even more restless. I couldn't express my feelings and anxiety in words but I felt like never before. Imagining life without Mahira seemed next to impossible. God somehow had shown mercy and finally the clock stroke five. I, unable to hold my anxiety further, was already outside Mahira's house by 5:30. I waited there for a while, though I felt like I have been waiting since ages. Anyways the clock stroke 7 and there she was standing at the door. The only glimpse of her brought tears to my eyes. How badly I have missed her all this while! I was really stupid to realize that so late. As she walked towards me it was as if she was walking the steps from my eyes to the heart.

"Hi." she said pushing a strand of her hair falling out on her face.

"Hi."I replied opening the door of the car for her and smiling.


She smiled back and sat in the car. I started driving home. Both of us couldn't speak for the entire journey except for the typical romantic bollywood songs playing in the background. There was, however, something in that silence too. The silence which sometimes speaks louder than words; the silence that makes you hear the heartbeat of the other; the silence that gives a hint that there is so much to speak but not sure about what to start with; the silence that gives overwhelming and ecstatic feeling;  and the silence that allows us a lot to speculate.  I guess it was for the first time that I had liked silence so much. I was enjoying every single second of that moment with Mahira. We finally reached home, though; I never wanted to reach that early. I opened the door of the house and let Mahira in first. She tried switching on the light but I stopped her from doing that and made her sit on the sofa. I lighted few candles and sat at her feet. She tried resisting by getting up but I forced her to sit there again and held her hand.

"Mahira, thank you so much for forgiving me and coming here. I can't thank you enough for returning back to my lifeless life and making it alive. I still can't believe that I am here with you. I missed you badly. I was so stupid, idiot, senseless, irritating, and what not. I mean how someone can be such a jerk...."

"I know. Who would know this better than me?" Mahira said interrupting me by placing her hand on my mouth.

I was taken aback and looked at her with surprise. She gave me a serious look and suddenly both of us bursted out into laughter. I looked at Mahira laughing uncontrollably. She looked so beautiful. I have never seen her that happy before. I was loving the fact that I could give her happiness she always deserved and cursed myself for being a jerk. I kept looking at her while she was laughing, with a promise to myself that I would never ever let that happiness go off her face again.













Sunday, December 27, 2015

LOVE IS......

Love is when somebody's name
Brings broadest smile to your face.

Love is when you think that life
Cannot be happier than this
And then someone makes you
More happier everyday like never before.

Love is when someone's happiness and well-being
Matters to you more than your own.

Love is when you hold somebody's hand
And you know that it's the best feeling you have ever had.

Love is walking with someone
And hoping it never to come to an end
As the journey becomes much more alluring
Than the destination itself.

Love is always thinking about someone
And knowing that you can't help it.

Love is  knowing that you are going crazy
But there is nothing that you can do about it.

Love is giving up everything you once loved
'Coz someone becomes precious than everything else you have.

Love is when you have all the luxuries in life
But you choose someone who have nothing else except love.

Love is when you start getting conscious of how you look 
Not because you want to be special
But because that certain someone
Is much more special to be with.

Love is when you start liking things
You detested the most once 
Only for the very reason that
It's liked by somebody else.

Love is when you wait all day long
Just to have a glimpse
Or hear a word from someone.

Love is when you check your phone
End number of times  
Just to make sure that
You haven't missed any call.

Love is when you can't stop looking at someone
To capture and retain that image in your eyes forever.

Love is when you are willing to lose everything
To have that one person in your life in return.

Love is when someone is the first thing on your mind
In your happiest moment and saddest time.

Love is when you can't imagine 
Your life without someone
As that someone 
Becomes your LIFE..... 

I AM YOU

I was with you when nobody was around
I was with you when nobody else could be found
I was with you when nothing for you was left in the world around
I was with you as a feeling and as an inner sound.

I was there with you in your fall
When you were left by all
In your troubles big or small
Keeping you intact to life's enthrall

I followed you to your wildest dream
Where nobody else could hear you scream
I stood by your side in the darkest gleam
As a strength when so feeble you seem.

I was there in all your need
Supporting you in all your creed
I was there to warn you against your greed
And to control your actions and misdeeds.

You feared
I encouraged.
You fell
I held.
You cried
I consoled.
You rebelled
I backed.
You were heartbroken
I endured pain.
You were wounded
I bled.
You laughed
I was elated.
You succeeded
I rejoiced.
You expressed
I felt.
You acted
I experienced.
You thought
I reflected.

My existence may not matter to you
I may not be figuring in your everyday view
But there is one thing for sure
You are my body, I am your soul
You are me, I am you.



SPEECHLESS CONVERSATIONS

Watching two speech impaired beings
Is such an amazing thing.
Talking about things known and unknown
With a language too interesting 
To intact anyone's engagement 
And wonder how without speaking
A conversation could be so compact.

Wouldn't it have been wonderful
Our conversation being powerful
Without speaking a word
And yet making ourselves 
Expressed to the world.
The language of the dumb-some
Being the language of everyone
Must have had made the communication
Much easier, happier and conflict less.

A language without noise
Source of peace and poise.
A language free from connotations
Having no deeper and further denotations
As speaking is not just making sound
It is making yourself understand
By expressing one's thought 
And whatever that comes to mind.

In today's world, it's usually
The words against words that fight
And the communication without sound
Would have solved this issue might.
As ironically, the more we speak to communicate
The more misunderstood we are.
The language without sound
Is free from conflict of pitch or rise of tone
The problem of harsh or rising voice
Leading to lots of useless chaos.

A majority of issue occurs because
We people blessed with speech always have
Running something at the back of our mind
And something else gets expressed in our words.
The world would have been happier to live in
Without the language of sound and speech
As soundless communication
Replaces sound with expression
And doesn't leave any space for 
Masks and manipulations.
With only one language around
And no layers of meaning to it
The world would have been like nature
Which communicates a lot
But despite the communication being silent
It's not only heard
It soothes us in the best possible way.

HAPPINESS

Who says that happiness is difficult to find
I found it in every small thing
I love doing and enjoy.

Who says that happiness can't be seen
I saw it last time in the smile 
I could bring to an unhappy face
By doing all I could.

Who says that happiness can't be touched
I touched it while holding the hands of a child
Who with all the innocence and trust
Put his hands on mine
Surrendering himself to me
With an ecstatic spark in his eyes.

Who says that happiness can't be tasted
I tasted it last time in the food
Someone offered and served
Being much more than he could afford.

Who says that happiness can't be measured
I measured it last time by the distance
I traveled from being  
An acquaintance to special
In somebody's life.

Who says that happiness has no volume
I weigh it every time by the number of people
I earn as well-wishers and friends.

Who says that happiness has no voice 
I hear it every time a long lost friend
Bumps into me all of a sudden
And calls me by names
I had myself almost forgotten.

Who says that getting happiness is not easy
I get happiness in every little moment 
I cherish of my loved ones
And of the selfless gestures.

Happiness is all about how we perceive
And offer ourselves to it's premises.
Happiness is all around
We tend to overlook the real ones
And search for the ones which are illusions.
We in our busy lives
Are so lost that
Everything revolves around
Our happiness alone
So much so that
We hardly care for others glee
And limit our boundaries 
For getting happiness frequently.

Then comes a time
When happiness is given away
To materialistic accomplishments
When to be happy you need artificial laughter
When happiness has no longer
Any meaning for you.
When instead of being happy
You start acting to be happy.

We keep on achieving things
Which we can use only as beings
And hardly care for those
Which gives us the very essence of being.

  

Tuesday, December 8, 2015

The Last Meeting

The last time we met
You asked me to wait
I didn't know till when
You didn't tell me for what.

Time moved on
And I was still there
Waiting for you
With your promise in hand.
You didn't come
For time so long
But there I was still
With your promise again.

Everything else around moved on
Leaving me where you left me alone
I was scared of losing all I had
Waiting for you for that long.
But I couldn't leave the place
As your promise was all I had along.

I gave up my dreams
My aspirations and my feelings
Just to make sure that
Your expectations from me
Should never fall flat.

My wait got prolonged
Wit no sign of your return
I saw myself still standing there
In the hope of that wait to get over.

I was laughed at
Mocked at
Looked down upon as stupid
But nothing could move
The belief I had in you
And the promise you made.

One fine day you finally came
I wanted to shout and let the world know
That the belief I had in you
Did not go in vain.
But you, holding my hand began
"Look you are not the one
Who deserves to be in my life.
I respect your feelings
But I can't accept you as part of my life.
The moments I spent with you are cherish-able
But can't think of it as memorable.
I found someone exactly
The way I wanted you to be.
So let's forget everything
And find yourself someone too
Who is as worthy as you."

You left and I stood there again
With no idea which way to go
Because while searching for you
I lost everything I had.
Once again I started with the broken pieces I had
Of my dreams, aspirations and
Of myself.
I had nothing to lose
As all I had once
Was taken away by you
Even the bits and pieces I had of you.

With you gone I couldn't believe
But I was all the more strong.
I was no longer the worthless and useless puppet
That you always made me believe I was.
I was myself again
With the same worth
And of much more value
Than what you assessed me to be.

Then you came again and
Holding my hand began
"I don't know what took over me
I was so stupid to leave a jewel like you.
Yes I called you a jewel
Because I know your value now.
The one I thought was worthy
And was ready to leave you for
Was just a shiny metal
With nothing of a jewel inside."

Releasing my hand from his grip
It was my turn to speak;
"Look now you are not the one
Who deserves to be in my life.
I respect your feelings
But there is no possibility of
Accepting you as part of my life.
The moments I spent with you were memorable once
But now they only remain cherish-able.
I won't say that I found someone
Exactly the way I wanted you to be
Because I never wanted you to be anybody else
As i had always accepted you as what you were.
So let's forget everything yet again
And find yourself someone else
Who is as worthy as you."

That's all I had to say
And now it's your turn
To be the part of that never ending wait
Which I have already been through
A while AGO.



ALONE

Ain't we left alone
In this fast changing world
Despite having a number of relations
We are helpless in finding connections.
We have family
But hardly do we have any familiarity
To share our life's bad and good
Or to bear worst of our mood.
We have home
But we are homeless within
As what we call home
Is just a place which defines our identity
Not our existence.
We have friends
But we can hardly share our heart out
Because of the fear of getting hurt or exposed.
With the increase in medium of communication
We are short of matter and person.
In this aloud world
The only thing everyone needs is to be heard
But unfortunately
Nobody intends to listen.

She too wanted to speak
If not much, at least bleak.
She wanted to tell about
SO many things around
About how she felt
Of things she could never reveal.

We talk about business deals
But isn't it important to know what one feels?

She wanted to express
To unladen the burden she carried of stress.
Are you interested in listening to her?
Only if you don't mind and find yourself free.
But i guess you are already occupied
In your own world highly unsatisfied.
I am sorry that i wasted your precious time
You yourself doesn't happy seem
And bothering you about her happiness
Would be no less than a crime
Because basically you also seem to be
On the same plane.

And there she was again
Everything to lose and nothing to gain
All alone amidst the crowd
With many people around
But in reality
None to be found.
She was getting more impatient
Tears have taken the place of expression
Her heart sinking again
Like she was never alive.
The entire incident came across her mind
Peace and happiness she could no longer find.
She peeped outside the window
And shouted a frustrated Hello
There was no response
Except for the echo of her own voice
Returning from the void of darkness
And reminding her of the own emptiness.

She slammed her hand on the table
Finding herself restless and uncomfortable.
Something got knocked down in this fight
She looked under the table only to find a knife
She got reminded of the torments
She had been going through
In the past, present and
May be the future awaits even worse
Those filthy touch and insulting eyes
Was it all she had in her life
And then she decided to end it all
Because she couldn't find another way
To deal with this befall.
She couldn't find anyone to walk
Freely or at least over a walk.

"I wish I had somebody
Life,then, would not have been a tragedy
The unspoken and unexpressed words
Would not have suffocated me to death."

With these final words
On her mind
She slit her hand with the knife
Setting herself free from the
Busy and self centered life
And yet another precious soul
Had to leave this world of mask and foul.

Sunday, November 29, 2015

Shell of Innocence

As a child
We are like
A human life
In an egg-shell
Made of innocence
And of selflessness.

We love, we feel
We react, we reveal
We cherish, we dream
We laugh, we scream.
We remain what we are
Both inside and to
The world outside
Just as a crack on a shell
Is fairly visible
To everyone alike.

Time goes on
Shell is given away
In the name
Of societal norms.
Shell of innocence
Is no longer nurtured
For the life in it
To grow as a being
With strong values
Of character, integrity
Of selfless mindset
And of humanity.

Misled shells
Then fall prey to the
Unfavorable situations in life
Sometimes by God and
At times by its creation
And then broken and beaten
As per the need of the one
In whose hand it falls.
At different times
In different ways
Losing every single part
Of the goodness it carried
Making the soul
Shell-less, value-less
And meaningless.
Only thing which remains
Is the materialistic view
Left by the
Mark of the broken shell.

And the trend continues
God blesses us to
Be born
With the shell
Parents nurture it
To strengthen
The shell and the
Life inside it
And then life
Snatches it away
Replacing it with the
Shrewdness and fragility.

But those who withstand
The test of time
And maintain the shell
Throughout their life
Are the ones who
Are required in
Today's world
For the world
To be happier,
Full of humanity
And peaceful place
To live in.

You


You may not be the first person
I would want to see
When I get up in the morning
But without you around
My mornings have nothing good about them.

I may not be loving everything you do
But nothing interests me more than you do.

I might have fought with you a lot
And shown that I don't really care
But all I want in life is
To be the reason for your smile.

I might not be liking
Seeing you all the time
But I don't remain myself
When you are out of my sight.

You may not be the last thing on my mind
When I go to sleep
But you are the only thing
That I have in mind.

I might not have expressed
What you actually mean to me
But the length and breadth of my world
Is exactly as much as you.

I don't know if we call it as
Love or not
But I can't imagine even a single second of
My life without you.

I might have said that
I can live without you
But only my heart knows that
You are the reason why I am alive.

I may not be able to give you
All the riches in the world
But I can assure you
Every little possession I have.

I may not be the world to you
But you are the only thing I have in this world.

I may not be living for you
But I can die a thousand deaths for you.

I may not have said that I love you
But the only thing I can associate love is YOU !!!!

The thing called Memories

Memories are the heart of life;                                                                         Sometimes sweet and at times a piercing knife.                                               As the same heart gives pain as well as joy;                                                     Sometimes make us laugh and sometimes cry.                                                 Memories also showers happiness as pouring rain;                                           And at times its full of pain....                                                                       Sometimes  brings a hearty smile                                                                   And at times makes us feel lonely and exile.                                                     Sometimes cheers up worst of our moods;                                                       And at the other times won't let us overcome                                                 Trying as hard as we could.                                                                             Memories of the loved ones                                                                             Or of the cherish able bygone days;                                                                 Haunts us in the same way.                                                                           Memories no matter sweet or bad;                                                                   Tends to tear you apart and leave you sad.                                                      wonder how people differentiate memory as Sweet or Bad                                As both leads to the same end where happiness is nothing                                But an alluring illusion !!!!!!

Friday, March 6, 2015

LiFeLeSsLy LiVeLy !!!

World today is selflessly selfish
People are no longer understandingly understanding
Wasting time with unfriendly friendly
And always privileging the familiarly unfamiliar !!!

A result of our actions unknowingly known
Makes our life securely insecure
It may appear believably unbelievable
But it does affect irrespective of the fact that
It is unintentionally intentional
Or intentionally unintentional.

Life really becomes completely incomplete
And sweetly unsweetened
Leaving us satisfactorily unsatisfied
Leading to attitude towards humanity as gratefully ungrateful
Finally making the world lifelessly lively !!!!