Silence

Silence.....

Unspoken words

Or a thunderstorm that's never heard.

Silence.....

Unborn feelings

Or the grave of emotions.

Silence......

Lava under the surface  

Or glacier in the running water.

Silence......

Clouds that never rain

Or vapours that could never form cloud.

Silence.....

Reticent tears that fall from eyes

Or the noiseless loudest cry .

Silence....
Subtle and profound

feelings

Or the most beautiful response.

Silence....

Unwanted, unimportant, unsaid

Or could have mattered a lot when expressed!!!!

Loveology !!!

One day through the windows of my eyes
I saw you passing by.
The sight of your presence remained for longer
And my feelings for you grew stronger and stronger..

Since that day on 
You started travelling with my body along
Sometimes you would pass through my mind
And at the other in my ears as an echoing sound.

I tried blocking your way into my body and mind
Occupying the passage of your travel
In different activities of my earlier interests
But hardly any success I could find.
Your sight in my eyes
And your visit in my bodily abode
Became so frequent and permanent 
That I could barely close the windows of my eyes
As you would be always be running and passing by
In the corridors and hidden corners of my mind.

I don't remember the duration of your stay there
But one day I heard a knock on the door of my heart
I opened the door
And there you stood with everything that I ever wished for
You were allowed inside
With a promise that it's here that you are gonna forever reside.

Once in the heart
Every bit of you got pumped throughout my body
In every part and in every vein
In every pleasure and in every pain
A presence as inevitable as oxygen 
And now you are settled here forever
So much so that I can't identify
The YOU in ME
and the ME in I....!!!!!

Pink(2016) is a kind of movie that happens once in a while. The movie voices the problems and concerns of independent working women. The movie is an eye opener for the typical mindset of our society that asks women to be restricted in every possible way rather than teaching it's men to behave themselves. Our society goes by a simple rule- if you are a women, behave in a way which seems appropriate to men and still be their victims. Whereas men are free to do what they want, what they like and still intruding in women's life because they are not happy with theirs. The movie clearly brings out the facts that why as parents to a girl child people often hesitate or think quite a number of times for letting their girl have the freedom that their boys enjoy. If we are perfectly fine with men staying alone and working why is it so difficult for the society to accept a woman doing the same. If by chance and choice a woman chooses to be different she is labelled as someone inappropriate in code and conducts. The movie also beautifully demonstrates the double standards that the society has in dealing with a man and a woman. Why do women have a specific code of conduct while men can live the way they want without being judged and misinterpreted? Why a woman's NO and CONSENT is not taken into consideration? Why can't men take NO for an answer from women without being violent against them? Despite several hue and cry about equality, when are we actually going to treat men and women alike in every possible way? When are we going to understand a woman's identity as an individual and a human being rather than considering them as a mere object of sexual pleasure? In answer to these questions lies the answer to the cause and control of increasing number of acid attacks, rape, domestic violence and several other crimes against women. A must must must watch..

What if ?

Walking along the lines of conventional norms

Certain diversions are found
Leading to some unknown and unexplored land 
Dodged by the majority
Walked by a few who could 
Dare to dream and take risk
Of Walking through the untrodden ways.
I was inquisitive
To take the diversion
Instead of the road walked again and again
And do something which not everyone does.

"I would like to do what I want."
I told my near and dear ones.
But as i had already expected
My thoughts weren't welcomed.

"What are you talking about?"
"You can't even say such things being a girl."
"This is the most ridiculous thing we ever heard."
Came the responses aloud.

With this I had only two choices left
Either to walk on the over-walked road with everyone
Or take the diversion alone
And i had already made my plans
Of walking alone rather than
Being with people who hardly understand.
The road to the diversion had been arduous
But the journey equally gratifying than anything else.

Walking through the diversion 
I saw a whole new world
Which people usually miss
Because of the framework of societal constraints.
I met wonderful and happy people 
Who were not there to compete with people
As those who chose to walk that way
Were there to be with people.
And then i thought.....

What if i had given up before starting
What if i had lingered between do's and don'ts
What if i had listened to those holding me back
What if i had not responded to my inner voice

and..........
What if i had never tried !!!!

It's You Mom

My first love and my best friend for years
My first step and my lifeline
My first walk and my greatest companion
My first word and my entire world.

My biggest strength in my darkest fear
My loveliest smile when I am all in tears
My strongest pillar whenever I needed
My angel to have all negativity weeded.

My umbrella in the rain of despair
My shade in the scorching sunshine of  criticism
My shield against the dangers of the world
My support in my failure and the reason for my success.

I belong nowhere and to no one except you
I possess nothing but what all I got from you
I mean nothing without the shadow of your presence
Because I am nothing but your reflection in me.

The unconditional love you shower on me
Is beyond the depth of ocean and the limitless sky
The endless sacrifices that you made
The countless compromises that you did
The immeasurable support that you gave
Made me what I am.

Yes Mom. No matter where I go
It's YOU
It has always been YOU
And it will always be YOU !!!

WHY IS IT?

Why is it that anything that comes in

Takes away something precious that we have? 

Why is it that every time we choose something

We need to let go of something else? 

Why is it that when we really want something

We become ignorant about what all we already have?

Why is it that when we decide between the two

We elevate the importance of one and demean the other?

Why is it that when we lose something

Then only we get to realise what it meant to us?

Why is it that our tears decide our weakness and our laughter strength

When it's easy to laugh and difficult to cry?

Why is it that in our difficulties

We get support from people we hardly ever cared?

Why is it that we want something which we can't have

And never want what we already got?

Why is it that we tend to spend time in pleasing those for whom we hardly matter

And disrespect the feelings of the ones who matter to us?

Why is it that love is defined by the duration of stay of two people together

When the duration together doesn't necessarily mean togetherness? 

Why is it that every union

Means separation from someone else?

Why is it that to feel happy

We need to know what being unhappy is

But when we are loved

We never realise what being not loved would be like?

Draping a saree

The distance of 6 yards that I travel everyday

Reminds me of the situation I am in.

Symbolises the number of circles around me

Of people, relations and responsibilities.

Of the distance that I travel of self journey

But without covering any distance as such.

Of the circular movement

That is supposed to bring women's life to a full circle.

Of the various ways in which I need to bend, fold and adjust myself

To perfectly fit into the role I am supposed to.

Of the fact that there are things which are meant for me alone

Coz I am the sole carrier and bearer of culture in society.

And the number of identities I carry

With myself to justify that I am worth alive.