I Write

When there is so much to say
But no words to express
I write.

When there are a thousand words
But all those don't conform to the
Framework of understandable 
Jargon of intercourse
 I write.

When the lava of emotions 
Erupting from heart 
Overpowers the waves of rationale and reasons 
Of the mind
I write.

When there is no one
To make myself heard
And I want to make myself audible
In the loudest possible way
I write.

When the proximity 
Of being misunderstood
Is more than the possibility
Of getting understood 
I write.

When the feelings keep me occupied
Unsure of what is wrong and what is right
When what lays ahead is a road of doubt
Over walked, discouraging and so wide
When I am not sure about something but i might
When the deepest secret urges to take the highest flight
I write!!!!





 

The First Thing

The first thing i see
When i look at you
Is an immense strength
That i can always hold on to.

The first thing i feel
When i touch you
Is a serene wave of emotions
Arisen from the boundless sea of love.

The first thing i hear 
When i listen to you
Is the only distinct voice
That keeps echoing in my mind
Among the voices of the crowd of the world.

The only thing i can make out
When i think of you
Is your inevitable presence in
Every bit of me!!!

Silence

Silence.....

Unspoken words

Or a thunderstorm that's never heard.

Silence.....

Unborn feelings

Or the grave of emotions.

Silence......

Lava under the surface  

Or glacier in the running water.

Silence......

Clouds that never rain

Or vapours that could never form cloud.

Silence.....

Reticent tears that fall from eyes

Or the noiseless loudest cry .

Silence....
Subtle and profound

feelings

Or the most beautiful response.

Silence....

Unwanted, unimportant, unsaid

Or could have mattered a lot when expressed!!!!

Loveology !!!

One day through the windows of my eyes
I saw you passing by.
The sight of your presence remained for longer
And my feelings for you grew stronger and stronger..

Since that day on 
You started travelling with my body along
Sometimes you would pass through my mind
And at the other in my ears as an echoing sound.

I tried blocking your way into my body and mind
Occupying the passage of your travel
In different activities of my earlier interests
But hardly any success I could find.
Your sight in my eyes
And your visit in my bodily abode
Became so frequent and permanent 
That I could barely close the windows of my eyes
As you would be always be running and passing by
In the corridors and hidden corners of my mind.

I don't remember the duration of your stay there
But one day I heard a knock on the door of my heart
I opened the door
And there you stood with everything that I ever wished for
You were allowed inside
With a promise that it's here that you are gonna forever reside.

Once in the heart
Every bit of you got pumped throughout my body
In every part and in every vein
In every pleasure and in every pain
A presence as inevitable as oxygen 
And now you are settled here forever
So much so that I can't identify
The YOU in ME
and the ME in I....!!!!!

Pink(2016) is a kind of movie that happens once in a while. The movie voices the problems and concerns of independent working women. The movie is an eye opener for the typical mindset of our society that asks women to be restricted in every possible way rather than teaching it's men to behave themselves. Our society goes by a simple rule- if you are a women, behave in a way which seems appropriate to men and still be their victims. Whereas men are free to do what they want, what they like and still intruding in women's life because they are not happy with theirs. The movie clearly brings out the facts that why as parents to a girl child people often hesitate or think quite a number of times for letting their girl have the freedom that their boys enjoy. If we are perfectly fine with men staying alone and working why is it so difficult for the society to accept a woman doing the same. If by chance and choice a woman chooses to be different she is labelled as someone inappropriate in code and conducts. The movie also beautifully demonstrates the double standards that the society has in dealing with a man and a woman. Why do women have a specific code of conduct while men can live the way they want without being judged and misinterpreted? Why a woman's NO and CONSENT is not taken into consideration? Why can't men take NO for an answer from women without being violent against them? Despite several hue and cry about equality, when are we actually going to treat men and women alike in every possible way? When are we going to understand a woman's identity as an individual and a human being rather than considering them as a mere object of sexual pleasure? In answer to these questions lies the answer to the cause and control of increasing number of acid attacks, rape, domestic violence and several other crimes against women. A must must must watch..

What if ?

Walking along the lines of conventional norms

Certain diversions are found
Leading to some unknown and unexplored land 
Dodged by the majority
Walked by a few who could 
Dare to dream and take risk
Of Walking through the untrodden ways.
I was inquisitive
To take the diversion
Instead of the road walked again and again
And do something which not everyone does.

"I would like to do what I want."
I told my near and dear ones.
But as i had already expected
My thoughts weren't welcomed.

"What are you talking about?"
"You can't even say such things being a girl."
"This is the most ridiculous thing we ever heard."
Came the responses aloud.

With this I had only two choices left
Either to walk on the over-walked road with everyone
Or take the diversion alone
And i had already made my plans
Of walking alone rather than
Being with people who hardly understand.
The road to the diversion had been arduous
But the journey equally gratifying than anything else.

Walking through the diversion 
I saw a whole new world
Which people usually miss
Because of the framework of societal constraints.
I met wonderful and happy people 
Who were not there to compete with people
As those who chose to walk that way
Were there to be with people.
And then i thought.....

What if i had given up before starting
What if i had lingered between do's and don'ts
What if i had listened to those holding me back
What if i had not responded to my inner voice

and..........
What if i had never tried !!!!

It's You Mom

My first love and my best friend for years
My first step and my lifeline
My first walk and my greatest companion
My first word and my entire world.

My biggest strength in my darkest fear
My loveliest smile when I am all in tears
My strongest pillar whenever I needed
My angel to have all negativity weeded.

My umbrella in the rain of despair
My shade in the scorching sunshine of  criticism
My shield against the dangers of the world
My support in my failure and the reason for my success.

I belong nowhere and to no one except you
I possess nothing but what all I got from you
I mean nothing without the shadow of your presence
Because I am nothing but your reflection in me.

The unconditional love you shower on me
Is beyond the depth of ocean and the limitless sky
The endless sacrifices that you made
The countless compromises that you did
The immeasurable support that you gave
Made me what I am.

Yes Mom. No matter where I go
It's YOU
It has always been YOU
And it will always be YOU !!!